Monday, September 21, 2009

Depths of my heart

"You see the depths of my heart, and You love me the same! You are amazing God!"

Wednesday, August 12, 2009


So, i've been having bad days at work. It's funny how God orchestrates things...tonight i read in my devotional this little rewritten "psalm" from a writer unknown:

The Worker’s 23rd Psalm

The Lord is my boss, and I shall not want.

He gives me peace, when chaos is all around me.

He reminds me to pray, before I speak in anger.

He restores my sanity.

He guides my decisions that I might honor Him in all I do.

Even though I face absurd amounts of e-mail, system failures, copier jams, back-ordered supplies, unrealistic deadlines, staff shortages, budget cutbacks, red tape, downsizing, gossiping co-workers and whining customers,

I won't give up, for You are with me.

Your presence, peace and power will see me through.

You raise me up, even when the boss fails to promote me.

You claim me as your own, even when the company threatens to let me go.

Your loyalty and love are better than a bonus check.

Your retirement plan beats any 401K, and when it's all said and done,

I'll be working for you a whole lot longer!

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Knitting for the Lord

So as Christians, we know that the almighty God is all knowing, sovereign over all things, causes all things to work out for the good of His people, and His will is perfect.

I say this because i've stumbled upon something that got me thinking, bringing me to a chuckle and being reminded that God is in control of all things. You might think its a petty thing but i find it quite funny and amazed in how God can use the smallest of things to reveal His glory.

I'm talking about my new hobby. I've become a knitter (but the cheating kind, with a wheel) haha, and recently i felt like i was in need of a hobby. Something that i can sit still doing while relaxing at the same time. God put in my lap, literally, knitting.

I believe that God in His all knowing sovereignty placed this hobby into my life so that i might draw closer to Christ.

I came to this conclusion a few days ago. A few days ago i decided to take a drive down to the marina in Benicia. I packed my Bible, a notebook, and of course my yarn and knitting wheel. After I had my quite time with the Lord, i spent the remainder of the time submerging into my knitting wheel. Knitting has almost become a subconscious activity. During this time, i found myself talking with God the whole time! Sharing with Him my concerns and prayers, lifting up my praises and just being in His presence. That's when i started to realize, wow! I bet the Lord is thinking, "See Alyssa, i needed to give you a hobby that would cause you to sit still. To be still and know that I AM God."

I feel like with everything going on in my life, i forget to be like Mary and sit at Christs feet. I feel like I always have to be in action, no time to rest! no time to sit and breathe. Like Martha, i've forgotten how to sit still. But God has placed something as simple as yarn and a plastic weird looking wheel to force me to sit still and talk with Him!

So almost every time i knit, i guess you can say that i'm knitting for the Lord! haha, it's true though. My knitting time is my "sit still" time, my time to just lift my thoughts to the most Holy One. Haha, I can't wait for this scarf to be done, so i can start on a new scarf! I'm excited, because the more things i knit, i'll be able to look back on them and think, "oh that scarf was during that one trial in my life" or "oh that scarf was knitted when God did this in my life" and so on and so on.

Yay the end for my yarn blog. haha.

Now as they were traveling along, He entered a village; and a woman named Martha welcomed Him into her home. She had a sister called Mary, who was seated at the Lord's feet, listening to His word. But Martha was distracted with all her preparations; and she came up to Him and said, "Lord, do You not care that my sister has left me to do all the serving alone? Then tell her to help me." But the Lord answered and said to her, "Martha, Martha, you are worried and bothered about so many things; but only one thing is necessary, for Mary has chosen the good part, which shall not be taken away from her." Luke 10:38-42

Monday, July 13, 2009


"We live in uncertain times which demand a certain hope that can only be found in God. Right now, choose faith over feeling. Don't doubt in the darkness what you learned in the Light." -taken from Girlfriends in God devotionals

Ah, yes it has been a month since i've graduated and yet it feels like i graduated last year. So much has occurred in just a few weeks. I started my new job, I've traveled across the country, got together with relatives that live far away, and I'm just naming the physical things that's occurred.

Besides these things, it seems as if right when i got that diploma of completion, completing school, my life took a huge detour down roads I would have never imagined myself going down. Some smooth rides and some not so smooth with a few bumps in the road. But if i can share one thing that i have been learning, its simple, it's that I can have confidence that my God is in control. I want to go off on a tangent right now and say 'MY GOD'! It has a whole other meaning to it when i say "MY GOD is in control!" Because that's what gives me confidence, the fact that God is now MY GOD i can have faith that he will perfect a work in me.

"And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose." Romans 8:28

"Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing."

So anyways, back to what i was saying...One thing I've noticed is that sometimes it gets so easy to take a hold of the wheel yourself thinking you know the way. But you end up getting lost or stuck and realize that's not where God wants you. I like using this illustration of driving a car on some road and what not. We as stubborn sinners, think we can do it on our own, think we can find our own way. But i will be first to admit that when I'm not giving it up to God, I get lost!! I fail and put my confidence in man and myself when i should be putting my confidence in Christ. Giving Him the steering wheel to my life and letting Him direct my paths, having faith that His will is perfect! and know that He will ultimately be glorified!

I like that piece from the quote above... "faith over feeling". We can get so caught up in our feelings and emotions and forget who the Ruler of our heart is.

Monday, June 22, 2009

fathers day

So for fathers day we go to Taylor's Refresher in Napa. A little change of scenery since we usually go to nice fancy restaurants that need reservations. Recently i heard that Shia La Beouf has been spotted there a couple times...and if you know me, you know i love Shia. We were sitting at our table with the entrance at a distance...and every time someone would walk in i'd glance to somehow possibly spot Shia! hahaha, and this is how our conversation goes...

(looking at doorway)
"Man! where's Shia!" -Alyssa
"I see him! Over there!" -Father
"Where?(knowing he's only kidding)" -Alyssa
"Right there, see the guy in the green shirt" -Father
"No? Which one? the guy outside?" -Alyssa
"No. The guy right there! look! with the goatee(pointing frantically)" -Father
"Who?!" -Alyssa
"That guy right there!!" -Father

As i finally see who he was pointing at, it was some man who was about 30 years older than Shia and almost resembled John Goodman with a goatee...

Oh father...Happy Fathers Day!

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

"ALMASON" sneak peek

I got the opportunity to do a photo shoot of my "cousin" Jason and his fiance Alma. I'm too lazy to upload pictures right now, but here's a sneak peek of what's to come! haha.

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

tumble weed

I am now officially a tumblr...

Thursday, June 4, 2009

What's next?

on the white couch with my feet kicked up on the coffee table, on my bed with my back against the poster filled wall, or sprawled out on my parents bed with my mom by my side...those are my favorite places in this house. It's where most of my thoughts build, my favorite places to just sit and think, right now im on the white couch with my feet kicked up on the coffee table.

my thoughts?
Wow Lord, You've been doing a lot in this little life of mine.

It's not often that i talk about myself on this but to update you blog readers...well, for starters, I'm graduating from College! Haa yes, little Alyssa is graduating from college. Am i going back for more...HECK NO! Also, i thought i felt something weird in the back of my gums, and wisdom teeth are coming out! I recently, after a long period of prayer, accepted a job offer at Sir Speedy as a graphic designer (in training). I've noticed a strong desire in my heart to someday open up my own children art studio in the future! For some reason, this is what really gets me excited lately. But for now, Lord willing, i'll be able to work at one to get the experience. God has been opening and closing many interesting doors these past few months! It's crazy! I remember 17 was a big year for me, God did a lot in my life then too...and thats when i graduated from high 3 years later! IM GRADUATING AGAIN!!

I think the question most people will ask now is..."So, what's next?" me! (btw, i moved...on my bed with my back against the poster filled wall)

I remember saying this when i was sprawled out on my parents bed with my mom by my side, "Sometimes i wish i just knew what God wanted me to do" But obviously it's not that easy, and i think that's where trust comes in...trusting God

this is a long post...but i want to share something from
they basically stole the words right out of my mouth!

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart...
and lean not unto your own understanding. Acknowledge Him in all your ways and He shall direct your path. Proverbs 3: 5,6

These verses are what I have always considered to be my "life verses." They are what I know and believe. I very often repeat them over and over to myself, especially while trying to make big decisions. However, over the past couple of years I have kind of been on auto pilot regarding the direction of my life. I've been busy (aren't we all), and just haven't taken the time needed to really focus on God and the path He is leading me. I am making the choice, because that's what I believe we have to do-make a choice, to commit myself to Christ daily. No more auto-pilot, no more just going along day by day. I am ready for an awakening of my soul. I can remember in the past where I walked daily with Christ and acknowledged Him in everything I did and how alive I felt!! I knew my purpose here on earth was to please Him and I took joy in that fact. Over the past couple of years, that joy has been put on the back burner because I didn't take the time and make the choice to put Christ first in everything I do.

I am excited about what the future holds and the work that God is doing within me. I pray that He will give me the strength and faith to follow Him wherever He leads and to take all of my fears away that I might have the faith of a little child and allow Him to "Direct My Path.""

God, is the creator and beholder of my life. So you ask "What's next?", i'm not too sure, but i think it's safe for me to ask God, "Ok, Lord, what's next? Direct me towards the path that is most pleasing and glorifying to you" and i can put my trust in God that He will.

Let me end this with a verse that i'm clinging onto right now as God works in my life...

"My soul, wait in silence for God only, For my hope is from Him. He only is My stronghold; I shall not be shaken. On God my salvation and my glory rest; The rock of my strength, my refuge is in God. Trust in Him at all times, O people; Pour out your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us." Ps 62:5-8

(although this verse is in my last entry, i HAD to share it again!)

Thursday, May 28, 2009

PSALMS 62:5-8

I needed to place this somewhere, so why not share it with ya'll.

My soul, wait in silence for God only, For my hope is from Him. He only is my rock and my salvation, My stronghold; I shall not be shaken. On God my salvation and my glory rest; The rock of my strength, my refuge is in God. Trust in Him at all times, O people; Pour out your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us.

This verse is where this hymn comes from

Only in God

Only in God is my soul at rest,
in him comes my salvation.
He only is my rock,
my strength and my salvation.

My stronghold, my Savior,
I shall not be afraid at all.
My stronghold, my Savior.
I shall not be moved.

Only in God is found safety,
when my enemy pursues me.
Only in God is found glory,
when I am found meek and found lowly.

My stronghold, my Savior,
I shall not be afraid at all.
My stronghold, my Savior.
I shall not be moved.
Only in God is my soul at rest,
in him comes my salvation.

Friday, May 8, 2009


O dear God, when darkness overshadows me, teach me that I am merely traveling through a tunnel. It will then be enough for me to know that someday it will be all right.
I have been told that someday I will stand at the top of the Mount of Olives and experience the height of resurrection glory. But heavenly Father, I want more-I want Calvary to lead up to it. I want to know that the shadows of darkness are the shade on a road--the road leading to your heavenly house. Teach me that the reason I must climb the hill is because Your house is there! Knowing this, I will not be hurt by sorrow, if i will only walk in the fire. -George Matheson

Monday, May 4, 2009


I got this song off of Jennie's blog:
Very simple lyrics, but a reminder for us all. Sometimes when we get impatient, don't you want to scream? I know i do! But God calls us to wait upon Him...and that doesn't mean to just sit and wait...I know if i just sit and wait, i get irritable (and want to scream). There are a lot of things in life that God tells us to wait for..A LOT!! but we need to remember to be patient and continue to serve Him and worship Him while we wait upon the Lord. (I especially enjoy and am challenged by the lyrics that i put in bold)


I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience

While I’m waiting
I will serve You
While I’m waiting
I will worship
While I’m waiting
I will not faint
I’ll be running the race
Even while I wait

I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it’s not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait

I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting on You, Lord

Thursday, April 16, 2009


"Who's that?" mom says referring to the new bangs picture 2 blogs below
"Uh...that's me!" i said knowing she was joking
"YOU LOOK LIKE A BOY!" mom said
"NO I DON'T!!" i snapped back

Wednesday, April 15, 2009


me & sissy on easter, waiting for people to arrive at the house so we can celebrate with family friends. BBQ & easter egg hunts! yaaaaay. haha.

What did you do for Resurrection Sunday?

Saturday, April 11, 2009


[my newly cut bangs from being bored and sick and stuck at home]

How to get rid of the flu:
1. Get a lot of rest.
2. Drink a lot of fluids.
3. Keep a balanced diet.

or that's what the internet says.
I've had the flu for about a week now and i think it's about to leave. I finally left the house for fro yo for the first time in about 123 hours!

Staying inside for soo long has brought me to interesting the frame over the fireplace is a little closer to the right side. The frame's when i lift my head off the couch are not parallel with each other. I thought all 5 frames on the wall in my right eyes peripheral were all the same but no, the one in the middle with 4 smiling Filipinos in it has a different border than the rest. I have Nikelodeon on ch.53 and ch.216. Top Ramen noodles absorb the soup, so the longer you leave it in the less soup there is and the bigger the noodles get!

So, that's all. I hope none of you have what i had, if you do i'm very sorry and i hope you feel better. If you are, I'd like to pray for you! I've noticed when people told me or texted me or called me to tell me they were praying for me, it made me smile, and a smile can cure a lot.

Monday, March 30, 2009

the LOVE list

i LOVE God, my reason for existence.
i LOVE to worship God.
i LOVE my mommy.
i LOVE my daddy.
i LOVE duke (my sissy.)
i LOVE family.
i LOVE music.
i LOVE my BFF.
i LOVE my friends.
i LOVE sunshine.
i LOVE being behind the camera.
i LOVE rice.
i LOVE blogging.
i LOVE japanese food.
i LOVE Pizza Hut.
i LOVE beaches.
i LOVE flip flops.
i LOVE flip flop tans.
i LOVE McDonalds.
i LOVE safe spontaneity.
i LOVE sleeping on the ferry.
i LOVE adventures.
i LOVE movies that make me cry.
i LOVE talking.
i LOVE laughing.
i LOVE deep conversations.
i LOVE chillin.
i LOVE sleeping til PM.
i LOVE fellowship with the brethren.
i LOVE traveling.
i LOVE love.
i LOVE hugs from mommy.
i LOVE dads corny jokes.
i LOVE when my younger sister comforts me.
i LOVE Community Bible Church.
i LOVE The Fellowship Club.
i LOVE the smell of art stores.
i LOVE brushing my face with pages from a book.
i LOVE to sleep.
i LOVE relaxation.
i LOVE accomplishment.
i LOVE the Disney Channel.
i LOVE children.
i LOVE singing in the shower/car.
i LOVE reading/writing poetry or spoken words.
i LOVE imagination.
i LOVE creativity.
i LOVE to help.
i LOVE staying up late.
i LOVE nights with rocky road and a movie.
i LOVE making people smile.

i want to add more...but im sick apparently and my brain stopped working 24 hours ago.

btw, i stole this from my god-brother joey ;D

Sunday, February 22, 2009


You have to be at a certain place at a specific time and you just found out that there is traffic.
What do you do?

a) Wait a bit longer so traffic can die down
b) Just go anyways, and deal with the traffic
c) Take an alternate route, knowing that it may take longer of a drive
d) Cancel your plans

You ask me why do i ask this question? I ask you why do you ask this question about me asking this question?

Wednesday, February 4, 2009


So last week at TFC i shared my testimony via spoken word. I thought i'd share it with those who haven't heard it yet. I think if you press play, the music in the background should stop. I pray that God is glorified and that you will be encouraged.

testimony - Alyssa Diaz

Saturday, January 17, 2009


It's January, which means it's still winter!! But yet, God has blessed us with a week of beautiful weather! I couldn't waste it! So of course i made my sister be my model for the day =). Enjoy a few shots i took out of the hundreds.

This next one is a little blurry, but i love it because i was trying to make her laugh.

I was frustrated with how bright the sun was in most shots but this one came out pretty artsy fartsy i must say!

Wednesday, January 14, 2009


i PROMISE i will blog soon!!! and it shall be a good one!

=) alyssa rae