Tuesday, October 28, 2008

5 Something

"Here i am, at your feet. In my brokeness, complete."

I have to admit that "THE ALYSSA RAE" was meant solely for the purpose of my photography and art. I also have to admit I'm no theologian, nor do i know any large or fancy words. But waking up at 5 something in the morning to my mother saying "Your uncle's having emergency surgery! Your father and I need to leave now, can you drop your sister off?...and Alyssa, please pray for him", has brought me to my knees, and there is no way i can just fall back asleep now. It's about 7 am, and i shall blog about it.

Last night i get an email saying someone has passed away. She was a young woman, and was simply driving home when it happened. This morning my uncle who has been in and out of the hospital since i can remember is back in but this time its worst than it's ever been. Usually when my mom comes in at 5 something in the morning and tells me something, my initial reaction is to ignore it, stay half awake and respond like I'm listening, "Yeah, yeah, uh huh, whatever.", and then I'm back asleep forgetting everything she said. This time, my sinful-selfish-half-awake-self wanted to respond like that, but it didn't happen, i awoke and was attentive to what she was telling me. This time my initial reaction was to pray. Pray for my Uncle's salvation, pray that these family members would find comfort in Christ, pray for the world's salvation, pray that God would give me the strength and use me to do His work! I have to admit, maybe i was a little bit sleepy when i was praying, but oh i was re-woken up again to the sound of the loud train's horn blowing rapidly 7 or 8 times, thinking "Huh, that's weird i never heard it sound that loud nor blow that many times. What if someone's in the way? Oh no! What if my parents are in the way? What if someone gets hurt?". Then the noise stopped and all i could do was pray...some more. I realized i don't pray as much as i should, nor do i share the gospel with others as much as i should. With people dying, or sick in the hospital, or caught even in a train wreck, you never know when your last breath is, but what we do know is that we're all in need of a Savior. The other night at TFC, a fellow servant shared to the students to not waste your life. Don't waste your youth, if you were saved at a young age, then praise God that he's using you at that age. Romans 1:6, we are not to be ashamed. We are called to do God's work and that includes sharing the gospel to ALL men. (Checking my pulse) Oh good, I'm still alive so that means God's not done using me. God has a purpose for me on this earth, because if i was useless and he didn't have any purpose for me, he'd probably take me by now. Paul stated in Acts,
"But I do not consider my life of any account as dear to myself, so that I may finish my course and the ministry which I received from the Lord Jesus, to testify solemnly of the gospel of the grace of God."
Only by God's grace and mercy, am i given the strength to do the work of God. I have a sudden urge to serve. "Urge to Serve" that should be the title of something. I know this is completely opposite of what I'm talking about, but i think of that verse in James about how such a small flame can burn down a whole forest. But it's talking about how we can defile someone with our tongue and cause a fire. Well instead of using your tongue to defile someone, use it to spread the gospel! Make a use out of that, spreading the good news and worshipping Christ. That makes me think of that song..."These hands were made to praise you, these lips were made to lift you up. I give to you my life in worship." Now i don't know how to end these things, so i'll leave it at that.

Friday, October 24, 2008


Don't have a model to shoot? Use your favorite stuffed animal, or your sisters barbie. As you can see, i used my toy soldier that i won at Scandia. I had an assignment to take multiple photos that tell a story, and like the procrastinator i am...i didn't have time to ask my sister or anyone, so i used my toy soldier.

2 Timothy 2:3-4
"Suffer hardship with me, as a good soldier of Christ Jesus. No soldier in active service entangles himself in the affairs of everyday life, so that he may please the one who enlisted him as a soldier."

Monday, October 20, 2008


Yes, we took it there...a birthday party for us 90's style! It was such a blessing to see everyone having fun that day! I'm so thankful it pulled through even though it was planned only a week before!


Monday, October 13, 2008


In light of halloween coming up, i thought i'd share this with you all.

The other day at TFC, i can't remember the exact question that was asked, but one of the girls in our discussion group answered it like this: "We're like a pumpkin, God comes in and removes all the bad stuff inside of us and carves us a new face. He then puts his light in us, so we can shine before all men." I know that wasn't word for word but you get the picture right? I thought that was something to blog about. And here's an idea, if you plan on carving pumpkins with your child for halloween, you can share with them the gospel while doing so!

Sorry no picture today!

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Southern California

So I'm glad you still read my blog! Anyways, this past weekend i took a trip down to Southern California with one of my good friends Drea. It was a nice vacation to just get away from the bay area before i go back to school. This was something that was much needed for sure. We did a lot on this vacation such as stay in the dorms at Master's college while visiting a few CBC friends that go there, as well as drive down to San Diego and visit another friend and went to a local church there. So Cal is so much fun, i wouldn't mind living there!! I didn't want to go home! Well, of course i brought my camera so i thought i'd share a few favorite photos.